12.7.05
yet another slpless nite..
hmz..having another slp-less nite..its already 4am in da morning n im still wide awake...tink i slpt too much last nite..=P was practically weared out..as i slpt 4am in da morning on sat woke up at 7 for ndp...catch f4 wif my poly buddies at midnite...n went for parade rehearsal da next day...hehe..=P
been tinking alot recently...abt getting a job...relationships...ncc...getting but lost...soon i guess..or am i starting to drift away again..??
abt job...applied for da pilot..yes nw every1 noes..despite da fact tat i hardly says..but seems tat some peps asked n those who noes jus told..n it jus got out..didnt really wan ppl to know coz i was jus trying..thought i may nt be da pilot material..jus wanna gif it a shot b4 i go for da real deal...going for another test str after ndp...a 5hr test..heard from helyn tat its very hard..got to do wif ur limbs coordinations...oh well..jus gotta try my best..nuting to lose..
gotta get a part-time job soon..really need da cash n b4 mum starts to nag again..nt tat i really like staying at home..but..hmz..lazy i guess..=) but really hope to learn driving b4 i start work..really getting nowhere here...
abt relationships...is it hunting me again..? i dunno..really hope tat i doesnt...really trying to get on wif my life..arghz..hate to tink of da happy times..weird rite..? oh well..jus making me feel lonelier ever..haha..tink ppl like kai n ting2 mite understand wat im refering to ba...=P though i really hope to be in 1...but dun wanna rush tings..n get into 1 jus becoz i wan to..starting to feel bit late...was really hoping to be in 1 for da long run b4 da big day..but sometings u jus gotta wait for fate to arrange rite..? realised tat my judgement is very poor in relationships..making da wrong decisions..missing da chance..or make others in pain...recent (nt very lar...) went out wif da trinity (they dunno dats da name i got for us..jus named onli...=P)..got to know tat he broke up wif her..was happy n sad at da same time..but i noe tat i cant possible tell him hw i feel..i missed my chance..n he has his life nw..dun wanna ruin da friendship tat we've bulit for years..hope for da best for him..for he is da most gentleman guy i ever met......
abt ncc...really hope to do a gd job for ncc day parade...my last ever ncc major event tat im gonna involve wif ba...real sad to know tat gd tings jus gotta end somewhere...=~( though mite really hope to continue on...guess tis mite be 1 of da reasons tat im taking tings 1 step at a time..? so tat i can do more stuff in ncc...? haven even get my gold cert n outstanding clt..shld have applied last yr..arghz..=/ come to tis yr...dunno even see a letter...apply also no use...really hate to leave jus like tat...some clts actually came n ask me when im leaving...hoping tat i can stay longer...tks alot guys..really touch..jus hope u peps can do east district proud...n continue bring up da standards of da cadets n corps...=D
ndp shows has starting...last sat jus had da 1st ne show..it was great....was telling others tat dunno y suddenly their marching n wheeling become so gd..haha...guess its really da crowd than..gd job gals..n also da few male clts marching..=) heard tat there was 1 cdo red lion broke his legs..hope he's alrite...get well soon..
go play some games liaoz..ciaoz..
Posted by dotsux at 7/12/2005 03:56:00 am